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quiet here in the dark 

Michael  McNeilley       

       wishing I had something to
       say to you
       that something had happened I
       could relate
       some thing you would find interesting if
       you were here
       but nothing keeps happening in almost
       fall still
       you sit in my head waiting or
       I think this
       since I never know when you
       will appear
       but you always do eventually
       unexpectedly
       and I find I remember things
       about you
       things I do not know though it is nice
       to think of them
       and I go back to cutting up onions
       making coffee
       it occurs to me to smoke but I light
       the filter
       that burned taste like the one firemen
       have always
       with them you can remember tastes
       you know
       like I remember you standing naked
       in my bathroom
       you or your shadow at the window
       the light
       a halo through your hair watching
       the moon and
       as you can taste perfume if you get
       close enough
       you can taste sweat if the air
       is still enough
       from across the room across
       years you
       can know from what is spoken
       what remains
       unspoken you can try to put these
       things away
       but for me closing my eyes is
       better to let
       these things flow over me like standing
       in warm summer
       rain the cold only later when the
       wind rises

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